This brought me to the good healthy realization that there were plenty
of situations left in the world over which I had no personal power – that if I
was so ready to admit that to be the case with alcohol, so I must make the same
admission with respect to much else. I would have to be still and know that He,
not I, was God. — As Bill Sees It , p.
114
I am learning to practice acceptance in all circumstances of my life,
so that I may enjoy peace of mind. At one time life was a constant battle
because I felt I had to go through each day fighting myself, and everyone else.
Eventually, this became a losing battle. I ended up getting drunk and crying
over my misery. When I began to let go and let God take over my life I began to
have peace of mind. Today, I am free. I do not have to fight anybody or
anything anymore.
Daily Reflections
10th step vernacular in the AA
Big Book “And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone - even alcohol. For by
this time sanity will have returned. We will seldom be interested in liquor. If
tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame.”
I seek spiritual progress and not
spiritual perfection—of which there is no imminent danger of my acquiring in
this lifetime—and so there is a lot less fighting going on in my head. Self-righteous indignation is an overused stalking
horse for my addict mind to talk me out of living in acceptance of the present
moment as a prelude to a rationale for using.
Being mindful in the current moment is not an intuitively obvious way of
living for me no matter how well it works.
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