Letting Go Of Our Old Selves

Carefully reading the first five proposals we ask if we have omitted anything, for we are building an arch through which we shall walk a free man at last. . . .Are we now ready to let God remove from us all the things which we have admitted are objectionable? Alcoholics Anonymous pages 75, 76

The Sixth Step is the last "preparation" Step. Although I have already used prayer extensively, I have made no formal request of my Higher Power in the first Six Steps. I have identified my problem, come to believe that there is a solution, made a decision to seek this solution, and have "cleaned house." I now ask: Am I willing to live a life of sobriety, of change, to let go of my old self? I must determine if I am truly ready to change. I review what I have done and become willing for God to remove all my defects of character; for in the next Step, I will tell my Creator I am willing and will ask for help. If I have been thorough in the preparation of my foundation and feel that I am willing to change, I am then ready to continue with the next Step. "If we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask God to help us be willing."  Alcoholics Anonymous page 76

If sobriety was a war, I have lost a few battles.  The fantastic miraculous great news is that I am sober today with 90 days...again.  There are not many alcoholics that have lost as many battles with the bottle as I have that are still sober today.  I needed more lessons in humility than most others in recovery.  Hopefully that is enough of that.

I am grateful for: the god-given grit and willingness to keep coming back to meetings in my battle for sobriety; 90 days sober; Lea having 90 days sober for the first time in her life since she was 7 years old; Youtube music videos; and my new hobby of making pendants by wire-wrapping rocks and crystals.