I'm Part of the Whole

At once, I became a part — if only a tiny part — of a cosmos. . . .
            As Bill Sees It, p. 225
                
When I first came to A.A., I decided that "they" were very nice people — perhaps a little naive, a little too friendly, but basically decent, earnest people (with whom I had nothing in common). I saw "them" at meetings — after all, that was where "they" existed. I shook hands with "them" and, when I went out the door, I forgot about "them."

Then one day my Higher Power, whom I did not then believe in, arranged to create a community project outside of A.A., but one which happened to involve many A.A. members. We worked together, I got to know "them" as people. I came to admire "them," even to like "them" and, in spite of myself, to enjoy "them." "Their" practice of the program in their daily lives — not just in talk at meetings — attracted me and I wanted what they had. Suddenly the "they" became "we." I have not had a drink since.
            From the book Daily Reflections
© Copyright 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.


We, Me and Lea, go the 9:30 AM Reflections meeting at the Alano Club every weekday and have done so for the last year.  Usually there are between 12 and 20 people at the meeting, making it slightly smaller than average.  What does make it unique is that it is a functional solution-based meeting primarily filled with newcomers and members with less than a year of sobriety. 

We had a great meeting this morning talking about it being a “we” program.  Erin has been going a little while longer than me and Lea.   Today, she had new sponsees sitting to her left and right with another young sponsee sitting across the room.  A year ago, Erin was lacking for sober friends.  Today she is a role model for woman in early sobriety wanting what she has.  

I pointed out all the “we” statements in the 9th step promises:  If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. we will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. we will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.


I am grateful to be a member of the “we” fellowship of AA.   All of my life I felt alone, and never more so as when I was surrounded by a crowd of people.  TToday I am no longer alone thanks to god and the fellowship of AA.

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