The Doors of Perception is a short book by Aldous Huxley, first published in 1954, detailing his
experiences when taking mescaline. The 1960s
band, The Doors, with Jim Morrison took its name from that book.
My (sober) doors of perception have changed greatly for the better over
the years. While not believing I was “unlucky”,
I did have the sense that it was my lot in life to stoically endure less than
ideal situations.
Now I believe that I am reasonably lucky. Not lucky in the sense that I will win money
in a casino, but lucky to be alive and sober with a living income that is
stable with good health insurance and people that love me.
It was unfortunate that I burned my ankle last month. I am crazy lucky that it was not worse. Normally I sit at my PC for an hour or
two. That night I was only here for 20
minutes. I would have lost my foot had I
spent my usual time here. As a sober addict/alcoholic
with relapses under my belt, I am blessed to be sober with a place to live in
reasonably good health. I have all my
teeth that are in good condition. That is not the case for many, if not the
vast majority of, people my age in the world.
I used to be a victim filled with self-pity for poor me and my horrible
circumstances. Truly I mostly needed to
grow up and take responsibility for my life.
That was something I was unable to do on my own. Nature or nurture, I was greatly misguided in
my approach to life.
I will be 56 next week. I am
lucky to have all the many blessings that I enjoy in my life and the lives of
those around me.
You are indeed very lucky, you have an income, a nice place to live, food, hydration, SOBRIETY, health care and people who love and care about you and someone who lives with you who truly cares, how lucky can you be A LOT..Here in clark county I volunteer with people who work in excess of 60 hour work weeks, single raising tiny ones, they thought they could not get food, WRONG, a minister at this tiny church feeds them from donations, I cook and clean and help out, no one ever complains about the food we get to serve them, I dote on the wee ones and my hubs helps out, I shame the people who have a lot of money to help me get high protein foods for the entire bunch..You are so so very blessed, many are still waiting to get disability and many are just homeless and no family to help them out NONE..they never complain, some have turned from alcohol and drugs old and young and starve for affection and just being around human beings, it makes me so aware how blessed I am and my family too, I go daily if I can by public bus my neighbor is a bigwig with the local bus system I never pay, sometimes I get food at the grocery retailer my husband slaved for most of his life, I buy discounted beef and chicken and we have a big feast it is a big blessing as I get to the store early with well made canvas bags and load up and take the bus to the tiny church, already many are waiting to get in for coffee and juice and bakery goods donated or eggs and toast and oatmeal our standard fare, many have no place to sleep the shelters bursting at the seams so the tiny church lets some of the older fellows and ladies sleep in a rec room with donated new sleeping bags with pads on the floors..see how blessed you are! Happy Birthday early, oh, the EX-GOVERNOR of Oregon is now under 12 FBI investigatrions, he is spending the money he got as the Governor trying to keep out of prison and his fiancé tooo! See how great you have it at 12 years younger than John Kitzhaber who threw it all away for being seduced by a young con of a human being wow whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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