I used to nurse a resentment like it was an orphan calf that had lost
its mother—feeding it, checking up on it and making sure its growth was
unimpeded. Today I use a different
approach. When I am angry or resentful
the problem lies with me. In my mind, somebody
else hurt or wronged me causes the pain.
Today I know that I am the one that suffers from my inappropriate
response.
Evaluating the cause of my pain, I find it is always from one of two
fears: fear of not getting what I want or fear of losing something I already
have. I have learned awareness,
acceptance and action. I am aware of my
pain, accept that it is a problem for me and then take action to avoid having
continue to be a problem for me. It
rarely happens in the time it takes to read this paragraph. It is fantastically better than how it used
to be.
I am grateful for my healthier responses to anger and resentment that I
have learned in recovery.
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