Working on Consistency

I felt like I had been stuck on short—as in not long—Gratitude blog posts for weeks now.  Going back over the posts for the last 10 days I was pleasantly surprised to see that they were mostly three paragraphs or better.  Most important was writing and posting every day. 

A classic alcoholic behavior is do some grandiose act and quit much like joining a gym for the New Year working out hard for three hours and never going back for the rest of the year.  New behavior is doing a little bit every day and working to improve from there.

The every weekday morning meeting I attend has a topic de jour from AA’s Daily Reflections which is a short page thought for each day of the year.  It tends to work on the step of the month number so that August is focused on the 8^th step—especially so for the first few weeks of the month.  So we have been discussing making a list of persons we had harmed and becoming willing to make amends to them all.

In my mind, most of my harms to others have been of the being a jerk variety as opposed to theft, abuse or violence.  I think of them as too small to make amends for and yet they can popup in my thoughts and bug me.  The solution to that problem is to make amends.  I will work on that.

I am wonderfully grateful to be sober and consistently posting on my Gratitude blog.  Both acts are both god given miracles that I could not do on own.