Got a call from Merri today. She
was my spiritual advisor/sponsor for several years when I first started going
to AA. She has 26 years and turned 60
last month. Both are huge achievements for
any alcoholic much less for a girl that grew up on the Yakima Indian
Reservation. I had thought about her and
her wisdom several times in the last month.
I am glad she called. It was
great to talk with her.
Talked with a friend of a friend that was in heinous pain today. Took her out for a drive and upscale burger in
the sunshine. She was so terminally unique that her not being
able to sleep last night was “not insomnia” as she snapped at me in my car in
no uncertain terms. I did not have a
kind reply to that so I said nothing. An
hour or two later, I got passed making it about me and got to have compassion
for her situation. She is grown woman
living in a “recovery house” with alcoholics and addicts that are not-sober with
a new bed-bug infestation in her room. I
have great compassion for her pain and living situation.
I did get to spend most of my day living in the moment/being mindful
with some degree of humility as described by Dr Bob, “Perpetual
quietness of heart. It is to have no trouble. It is never to be fretted or
vexed, irritable or sore; to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel
nothing done against me.
"It is to be at rest when nobody praises me, and when I am blamed or
despised, it is to have a blessed home in myself where I can go in and shut the
door and pray to my Father in secret and be at peace, as in a deep sea of calmness,
when all around and about is seeming trouble.”
Merri shared many great quotes with me.
One is “happiness is having what I want and wanting what I have. I am pretty happy today. I like what I have and have stuff I like. That is another miracle after a lifetime of
chronic depression.
I am grateful for my serenity, happiness and quietness of heart today.
My name is Mary not Merri, her wisdom shines thru in your blog..Wanting what you have to me in my opinion is the road to happiness and surely recovery, as to the other lady, I will pray and chant she gets some relief from her situation, bed bugs, people trying to get sober..Love your blog always positive and happy lately, but appreciate your comments on depression, it is here and there in many peoples lives indeed..keep up your recovery and enjoy the few days of wonder of sun in seattle, we are bracing for 90's this next weekend, oh, my goodness sakes alive, ciao!
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