Much of my communication with others was hiding behind sarcasm as
humor. I still do it, but not nearly as
much as I used to. Today I used some
sarcasm as humor at a meeting and was able to immediately make amends to the group
and to those it was directed towards.
That is tremendous progress towards improving my communication and
relationship with myself and with others.
I now have the empathy to know how much sarcasm can hurt others, don’t
like how it makes me feel—at best it is like a warm glowing icky— and pushes
others away from as if saying “talk to the hand”. Instead of feeling guilt and shame for how
badly I used to behave I can have self-compassion for doing the best I could
with the tools that I had.
I am grateful for the courage to overcome my hiding behind sarcasm, the
overwhelming desire for better relationships as motivation to change my
behavior and the love of my friends to allow me to make mistakes and still love
me.
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