The AA 12x12 describes letting instincts far exceed their intended
purpose by willfully demanding they supply us with more satisfaction or
pleasure than is possible as a measure of our character defects or sins. When two or more of those instincts are in
collision, we need to get right-sized.
Alcoholics have been described as ego-maniacs with low self-esteem.
In my case, my instincts for prestige (popularity) is in collision with
my desire to isolate at home. I want to
be popular without having people bug me with phone calls, invitations and
such. This is an egregious example
conflicting my desires and serves to clearly illustrate how I set myself up for
failure by wanting two outcomes that are mutually exclusive. It gives me an excuse to never be happy, full
of self-pity and set myself up as a victim of circumstances instead of taking
responsibility for my life, mental and physical health..
While I am still far from right-sized, I know that discussing these
instincts in collision with god and others will at least relieve me to the
burden of being as sick as that secret. I
definitely need help from powers greater than myself to have these and other shortcomings
removed.
I am grateful for this spiritual program of action, my higher power and
my friends in the fellowship of the spirit as I trudge the road of happy
destinies.
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