We admitted we were
powerless over alcohol — that our lives had become unmanageable. 12x12 p. 21
It is no coincidence
that the very first Step mentions powerlessness: An admission of personal
powerlessness over alcohol is a cornerstone of the foundation of recovery. I've
learned that I do not have the power and control I once thought I had. I am powerless
over what people think about me. I am powerless over having just missed the
bus. I am powerless over how other people work (or don't work) the Steps. But
I've also learned I am not powerless over some things. I am not powerless over
my attitudes. I am not powerless over negativity. I am not powerless over
assuming responsibility for my own recovery. I have the power to exert a
positive influence on myself, my loved ones, and the world in which I live.
Last year was the best year in my life for learning how to change my
attitude from being full of self-pity and helpless to assuming responsibility
for how I feel. With that responsibility,
I got the power to change how I feel.
This change does not happen immediately.
There is an inertia to how I feel.
By taking right action, I can apply a force of positive energy towards
how I feel. It is usually more work and
slower than I want, but I can now change how I feel in a reasonably timely
fashion from a foul mood to having a nice day.
I am grateful for the skills and responsibility I have gained over my
feelings and thoughts in the last year by becoming aware of how I feel,
accepting how I feel and taking right action.
No comments:
Post a Comment